Through a Wife’s Eyes
I have so many thoughts running through my head right now. I have started and stopped this posting at least 5 times. This blog has been a tremendous tool for Gary and I, and it helped us tell our story about dealing with pancreatic cancer. It’s funny, I want to share things but my thoughts seem so personal. So many things have changed. I will try again another night.
Thanks for checking in, Sue. I’ve thought of you a lot over the past few months and been sending prayers your way.
The internet is a paradox because one moment it is an intimate place to share our deepest feelings … the next we realize it’s this humongous echo chamber and we really don’t know what (or who) is on the other side of the cavern. Ultimately though, I think you have it right: this blog is a tool. If it helps, it’s a valuable tool. When it ceases to be helpful, maybe it’s time for a different tool. (We don’t need a hammer all our lives … sometimes we need a shovel! ) But I find you usually strike just the right balance and never have felt uncomfortable reading your thoughts because they are so real and relatable. So when you can write? Write. But never feel pressured because that would be letting the tool control you — rather than you controlling this wonderful tool.
Take care,
Juji
Sue, we think of you and Ben often. I appreciate your blog entries, but do not ever ever feel pressured to write anything! Everything you are feeling is totally understandable. We will continue to love you, pray for you, and think of you!
Thinking of you, and Ben…and Gary.
Continuing to think of you and Ben.
Sue, I couldn’t have said it any better than Juji. We continue to keep you and Ben in our prayers. Please know, that your friends and loved ones are on the other side, and we all love you…We share your grief and your joy. We also know that Ben brings you much joy, so cling to him and talk to God and Gary. I can see him and Dad playing euchre up in heaven and looking down on you and Ben with pride and love…..
Yes, Sue, keep writing. It may seem as though you are being too personal, but it may be helping more people than you know. Only know that if it helps you, continue to do it as many of us are wanting to know how you are doing, but don’t really know how to ask. Keep telling of the crazy things that Ben has done to make you smile. Whatever works for you, do it, but don’t feel pressured into something you don’t want to do.
Sue , I think of you and Ben often and usually cry when I do. I think of all the time that was missed to spend time together with Gary . All the missed moment to talk, to share memories,to see the children. I don’t want to miss times with you and Ben and I hope with the other Children. We love to hear from you but I would have a hard time writing it on the blog also. juji said it perfectly. Don’t let the blog control you but use it if it helps you. As Marcia said we do love to hear about Ben so if nothing else tells us the cute and funny thinks Ben is doing. I love you both. Aunt Pat
Sue and Ben,
I just want to let you know that we lifting you up in prayers daily. I thank you for the blogs you and Gary did because it helped Cal and I to understand what you all were going through since we are so far away. I still look once in a while to see if you have written anything, especially about what Ben has been up to. He is the one that will lift you up during these days ahead. We pray that the Lord will give you peace and joy when you least expect it. Much love to you, Ben and the rest of the family. Judy