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I actually started an entry back on Dec. 20th, but I didn’t get very far.  It has been difficult to focus on things. I am sure it isn’t a big surprise that I struggled through the festive parts of the Christmas season.  The question may be, do you celebrate?  Some people may think that it’s wrong, because we [...]

Going to the Wisconsin Dells turned out to be bitter sweet, but also a good thing.  With my last post, I was almost looking forward to it.  As the day got closer, I wavered.  Stress. Sadness. Anxiety.  I wasn’t sure what to do. Being with Gary’s family could be a good thing, but I was [...]

Today is Gary’s 48th birthday.  Happy birthday honey!  I have been trying to submit a post on this blog since the funeral, but it is very difficult finding the words.  Someone asked me yesterday if my days were getting any better.  I had to think about that question… for me, the days aren’t getting better… but there are [...]

Gary passed away at 6:50 tonight (Sunday.)
I knew he had been declining all day, but it still took me by surprise. I had stayed close to him, asking him not to go anywhere if I needed to get up and leave the room. His mom, my parents and brother Jim and sister-in-law Jill were here and [...]

Here’s to another day in the Holt household. I just finished reading all the comments to Gary – cried a lot – and it really sunk in how important he has been to so many people. I know he is my world, my computer genius, my Mr. Fix-It, my stay focused man, my very own [...]

Hello everyone. Thank you for the best anniversary wishes! We have had 9+ WONDERFUL years together and now are savoring each minute. Gary is still fighting with all that he has – I can not tell you how often I thought this was it. But, Gary has other ideas. His breathing is labored, and I [...]

Just wanted to do a quick update for everyone. Gary is still fighting… holding on. He isn’t as responsive as this weekend, he spoke a bit yesterday morning but by the afternoon he was sleeping most of the time, or listening to all that is going on around him. He is getting more restless and [...]

We got through another day. Gary had a pretty good nights rest last night although this is going a lot faster than I thought. On Saturday he was having trouble holding the phone to his ear, and this morning his shoulders and elbows kept giving out when he was leaning on them. He is very [...]

Hello everyone. This is probably one of the hardest posts we have had to do… but we have made the decision to discontinue treatment.

[Sue]  Hello all! I bet you are wondering how the Ely Relay for Life went. Well… it was a success! Luckily Gary’s kids were able to join us, and we headed up to Ely about 1pm. We stopped at my parents house to get our Relay T-Shirts then off to Whiteside Park to find our [...]